A Train of Thoughts

(notes: On the train, i was inspired to write, because of the beauty from God emitted through the scenery)

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah keadaan yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri.

Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves.

I just thinks of what’s make us do certain behaviors? It is something in ourselves, then the question will be what we need to change when we want to change certain behaviour?

ie: (good) self confidence. (It is reflected from Messenger’s of God actions and speech)

Then the question will be: what is inside of me that makes me not confident? And according to what happened in the past, i will add another question: what makes me overconfident? –——— I also thinks of how to act around people, what do people is thinking when seeing other people or something? Or perhaps they’re just seeing it naturally?

What i’m trying to say is that when i saw some child near me what should i do? Greet the child? Give them smile (being gentle, my friend is doing this)? Or just ignore them (in my mind i do that for the parent)? As far of today i do the latter. But that raise the questions, which one should i do? I do think that this is an over analyzing and overthinking it, since which work for that time, it is for that time. But that raises the question of this: at some moment i fear that i if i greet or smile there is some concerns:

1. Usually people will not do that (especially men ofcourse)
2. Usually women that do that.
3. I fear that there is an obligation to keep contact with them or the family. on those 3, we can elaborate number 1 and 2 as: fear that i was not manly enough/being seens as a feminine (or straight up weirdo/suspicious person)